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Achilles, Best of the Greeks ([personal profile] refusetofight) wrote2023-11-23 09:22 pm

For @messageforyou

Besides the obvious, there’s one big problem with being dead: it leaves Patroclus with too much time to think. To ruminate. To overanalyze. That was always his tendency, but at least in life, he had Achilles and the war. There was rarely a stretch of stillness that allowed him to wander so deep in the labyrinth of his own thoughts.

Not like Elysium. Patroclus wishes he was more like Ajax, always spoiling for a test of strength against the shades of other legends, or Odysseus, chatting and joking so easily with anyone who will listen. Will they ever tire of it? Meanwhile, Pat still feels like his place here is undeserved. His act of bravery at Troy was a fluke. That wasn’t enough for Elysium; Achilles had to arrange that deal with Hades himself.

And what is he doing with that gift? Whiling it away in a chronically dreadful mood. It’s no surprise Achilles would take another lover. He needs someone more exciting and vibrant. He needs a challenge. Hermes is who he needed from the very start. Powerful, divine, worthy.

Now there’s Lyra, to—a beautiful, perfect child. Hermes can give Achilles anything he wants. What can Patroclus give him? Painful memories. Shame and regret. Achilles never says as much—of course he wouldn’t—but Pat assumes.

He lays sprawled on the spongy ground in the center of a glade, looking up at Ixion and fumbling around the corners of this well-trod maze of thought. Méli has surrounded him in scattered offerings: very fetchable sticks, a sandal, a broken arrow, an old bone. She finally gives up her restless pacing to flop down next to him. She shifts to rest her chin on his chest and sighs emphatically. Her gifts don’t seem to be helping.

“I’m sorry. I’m not good company right now, am I?” he mumbles, stroking her soft ears. He wishes he could be more like her. Living in the moment, not a single worry except what fun will be had next …
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[personal profile] messageforyou 2024-01-14 07:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Love has frequently been a choice for Hermes, especially one he struggles not to make. There were many times he didn't want to love Zeus, wanted to sever that last emotional tie, but he never could. He would always get caught on something--some scrap of affection his father threw his way. And he could never just leave and disappear and let Zeus be out of his life completely. With everyone else in his life, he could walk away and never again see them, such is the privilege of godhood--but he doesn't want to.

Just as he could walk away from Lyra, ignore her like so many other gods do, but he doesn't want to. Even if he's afraid.

And Lyra, for her part, is visibly soaking up the affection. Even if they give her the annoying grownup answer of 'she'll understand when she's older.' But she supposes if all the adults say that, there's probably at least a little truth to it.

"It seems like a lot of trouble," Lyra muses. "I like the love I have already."

"Oh, it's a lot of trouble," Hermes chuckles, looking down so he doesn't instinctively look at Achilles or Patroclus. "But it's worth it. You'll see. Unless you grow up like your aunt Athena, who hasn't the slightest interest in any of it, but not many people are like Athena."

Lyra cocks her head curiously, rocking gently in Achilles' grip because she is terminally unable to sit still. "What's Athena like? Is she nice?"

"Depends on how you define nice," Hermes says, still smiling. "She doesn't do social visits. I think being friendly for the sake of it would give her hives. But she's fair-minded and even-tempered. But Achilles has firsthand experience how she deals with mortals."
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[personal profile] messageforyou 2024-01-14 10:27 pm (UTC)(link)
How interesting, to learn about the gods from people who've met them. Lyra had never imagined meeting one at all, let alone being able to hear about all of them. She nods as her daddy advises her to listen to Athena--not that she really intended to openly defy an Olympian who told her what to do. "I'll listen if she comes. Promise."

She can't help but hope she has a chance to meet Athena. And Aphrodite. And all the other gods and goddesses who make her aunts and uncles and grandmas and grandpas. Except Zeus, maybe. It sounds like there's trouble between Zeus and Hermes, and even at her age, she has the good sense not to get in the middle. Lucky he's gone to the stars, so she doesn't have to.

"Do any of the Olympians like social visits? Being friendly just to be friendly?" The stories don't make it sound like it, but Hermes kind of strikes her as someone who likes social visits. Why else would he visit her as a kitty? And Hermes smiles, and it's like the glade glows with his good mood. He likes talking about his family to her, she notes. And it feels a little like the world around him always responds to his mood, like the land is happy when he's happy, and it's sad when he's sad. Maybe that's just what it means to be a god.

"My brother Dionysus, and my aunt Hestia, both like to be friendly for the sake of it," Hermes says. "And Hebe. But Hebe has a mischievous side. She likes to raise a little playful trouble, especially when the grownups take themselves too seriously. Aunt Hestia likes a nice conversation by a warm fire, and Dionysus likes to party."

Lyra looks to Patroclus, then to Achilles, leaning her head against her daddy's stomach. He's not as warm as the living, but his embrace is no less loving for it. "Have either of you met them? Are they nice? You said Hebe made a hopscotch tournament."
Edited 2024-01-14 22:30 (UTC)
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[personal profile] messageforyou 2024-01-15 04:49 am (UTC)(link)
Lyra listens with wide eyes. She's grateful that she gets to hear about the gods from Hermes and Achilles. Hermes seems to know them like people, because he's one of them, but Achilles knows them like she's likely to know them. Like gods.

"Isn't Prometheus trapped on a mountain?" she asks, leaning her head against Achilles' hand.

"No longer. He was freed, and Olympus isn't rushing to put him back up there." Hermes smiles at her, warming to watch how easily Achilles embraces her. Hermes is jealous that he can't do it himself, but there's something that eases the knot in his chest just to see his lover holding their daughter so tenderly. "I think he'd like to meet you a lot. He has a soft spot for all his creations."

"Would he answer my questions?" Lyra asks with wide eyes. "Like... why sometimes you're itchy? Or... why boys grow taller than girls?"

"I'm sure he would, little bird." Hermes doesn't even notice himself reusing Apollo's own term of endearment for him, the one Apollo used especially when he was still a child. It comes naturally. "He likes curious people."
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[personal profile] messageforyou 2024-01-15 11:59 pm (UTC)(link)
"I'm no good at holding still. Eu-Eu says it's like I have ants in my clothes," Lyra says solemnly, like this is very important information to impart. "But I'll try, if I ever meet Lord Prometheus."

"Not holding still well is something else you come by honestly," Hermes says with a laugh.

But Lyra is still curious. It's a boundless curiosity, childlike and full of wonder and impossible to sate. She blinks up at Achilles, resting her hands on his and feeling the creases of his knuckles. "You said some of the gods are easier to deal with than others. Which are which?"

"I'll save Achilles from answering that question to my face," Hermes says, chuckling warmly. He knows Achilles' feelings on the matter, and he knows and loves that Achilles tries to be sensitive to Hermes' own feelings about his family. "My brother Apollo is the hardest to deal with for mortals, usually. He's temperamental at the best of times, and going into the Underworld puts him in a foul mood because it's so uncomfortable for him. Your father is very patient with him, mostly for my sake."

Hermes flashes Achilles a smile, warm and loving and grateful. It makes the glade warmer too. Lyra cocks her head. "Why's he so grumpy?"

"Ah, that's complicated." Hermes gives a small shrug and a rueful smile. "For a lot of reasons. But especially because he carries the heaviest burden of all the Olympians by knowing the future and guiding major events. Bearing so much, he's more sensitive than most to feeling taken for granted. So remember to be thankful for his blessings when he gives them, mmm?"

Including the things most people take for granted. Medicine. Knowledge of how to keep a healthy body. Education. Light. Music. The guidance of prophets. Lyra nods, taking this advice as seriously as all the other advice she's received about the gods.
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[personal profile] messageforyou 2024-01-16 03:52 am (UTC)(link)
Lyra squeals in delight as she's picked up and shaken, giggling before wrapping her arms around Achilles' neck. Hopefully, he had no intention of putting her down, because now she's thoroughly latched on.

Hermes is grateful for Achilles' tact, and it doesn't escape his notice how quick he is to intervene and stop any potential conflict before he starts. Hermes takes a mental note to give him a hundred kisses later for keeping his promise and for being sensitive to not giving Lyra a bad impression of her family before she has a chance to meet them and form her own opinions.

"War sounds like it's hard in the stories," Lyra agrees, putting her head on Achilles' shoulder. "Why'd Apollo side with the Trojans? The stories I hear don't say."

"He favored Hector and Paris, but I don't think that was the reason." Hermes shrugs. "You'd have to ask him. I know that the King Agamemnon offended him very deeply. And he raised the walls of Troy himself with Poseidon and Aeacus, and said only with a descendant of Aeacus could anyone breach the walls. When he gets caught on something obscure like that, it's usually for some prophecy reason where things will go really badly if they don't go that way."

"Why?" Lyra asks, her new favorite question.

"I don't ask anymore." Hermes shrugs with a half-smile. "Apollo doesn't like to share visions of the future with me unless they're happy ones."
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[personal profile] messageforyou 2024-01-16 05:30 am (UTC)(link)
Lyra is very happy to be carried. Her foster father is too old and bent from a lifetime of labor to carry her, so she clings to Achilles like a little monkey and giggles as she's rocked, tucking her head into the crook of his neck. Even now, even as a shade, he smells a little like the ocean.

"What are the gods and goddesses of the Underworld like? Patroclus told me that there's a prince Zagreus, and you taught him," she says, happy to bask in the affection and attention being lavished on her.

Hermes watches, smiling. His own internal clock tells him that soon, Lyra will need to go home, but he doesn't want to make her go quite yet. He wants to commit this moment to memory, watching Achilles hold and rock her back and forth.
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[personal profile] messageforyou 2024-01-17 04:01 am (UTC)(link)
Lyra giggles, wrinkling her nose in delight at the banter and rocking. "I haven't seen Charon, yet."

"My associate--Charon--is impossible to miss. He towers over people, breathes purple smoke, and has very little flesh on his face, and the lack of lips make it hard for him to say anything but groaning." Hermes' aura, if anything, warms even more as he talks about Charon, guard thoroughly down. Not that he's really worried if Achilles picks up on his relationship with the boatman. "But don't let the intimidating visage fool you--he's a softy. He especially likes it when people talk to him and learn how to understand him. You catch on eventually, if you take the time to listen."

Hermes is pretty sure Charon fell in love with him because Hermes was terminally incapable of shutting up. Charon likes cheer and chatter. Hermes thinks that's why Charon has a soft spot for Zagreus, too. All too frequently, people find Charon frightening or repulsive, but that's their loss.

"I'll listen, if he talks to me," Lyra promises. "I'll learn how to understand."
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[personal profile] messageforyou 2024-01-18 04:30 am (UTC)(link)
Hermes has kept a pretty solid policy of not unnecessarily talking about other lovers when he's with one person. It seems rude. Plus, he's always been so afraid of one being discovered that he's made a habit of not sharing any of their names, even to each other.

"Oh absolutely. And my uncle would readily admit it." Hermes stands up from the grass, leaning in to tuck a lock of hair behind Lyra's ear. There's something very nice about just... standing with them. Together. Like a family. "My uncle Hades is grumpy, but you can trust him to be fair-minded. Persephone is half mortal, so she understands them better than most of the family."

Hermes grins at Achilles. "I think Lyra would get along with Zagreus. They'd keep each other busy with questions for eons."

"I want to meet Zagreus!" Lyra may not be able to tell how time is passing down here, but her body is. She stifles a yawn, fatigue beginning to drag her eyelids, but she's too eager to keep up the conversation to admit to being tired. Especially since she's pretty sure that it wouldn't be good for her to sleep in the Underworld. "I want to meet everyone. They all sound so interesting."
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[personal profile] messageforyou 2024-01-18 09:37 pm (UTC)(link)
"I'm not tired! I can stay!" Lyra protests, but Hermes just shakes his head with a soft chuckle as he takes her into his arms.

"Don't try to push yourself to stay awake as long as gods and shades, little bird. You're still growing, and you need your rest."

Lyra pouts. She makes a point to pout very emphatically. It makes Hermes giggle, tapping her nose playfully. "Keep making faces and you'll get stuck that way."

She scrunches her face at him, which makes him laugh again. He smiles to Achilles, aura swelling with love. "I'll make sure she gets home safe. I'll meet you at the mouth of the Temple later tonight?"

To meet his mother, Maia. Just in case Achilles needed a reminder.

Lyra, meanwhile, twists in Hermes' grip and reaches for Patroclus, wordlessly requesting he come close so she can squeeze his hand and say goodbye.
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[personal profile] messageforyou 2024-01-19 04:43 am (UTC)(link)
Lyra smiles as she's kissed by her father. "Love you too."

It's easy for her to say. Hermes is almost jealous, how easy it seems. But the jealousy gives way to relief that she doesn't face the same struggles he does.

If Hermes feels any sort of way about Patroclus getting close enough to say goodbye to Lyra, he doesn't give it away. Lyra smiles at Patroclus, squeezing his hand. She at least has the tact not to bring up their conversation they had when they were alone.

"I'll be good. You be good too." Lyra presses Patroclus' hand to her cheek before she lets him go, scratching Méli's head. "You be good too, Méli."

"I don't know if Méli can be anything but good," Hermes says, adjusting his grip on Lyra. "Say goodbye, little bird. We'll be back to your home before you know it."
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[personal profile] messageforyou 2024-01-20 04:02 am (UTC)(link)
Lyra giggles at Pat's joke before wrapping her arms around Hermes' neck. "Yeah. I'll see you again soon."

And then they're gone.

It's dark outside when Hermes flutters down in the woods just near Lyra's home, the glow of the fire in her cottage glowing through the windows. He's about to say goodbye when she clings harder to his neck.

"Don't go yet," she says. "I can stay awake. Just to talk a little. I still have questions."

Hermes isn't so sure how he feels about spending time with her as a person without Achilles around to reassure him, but he remembers all the times he wished Zeus would stay with him a little longer, and he can't deny her. He sits on the forest floor, settling her on his lap. "What do you want to ask about?"

"About everything." Lyra presses her cheek to his shoulder, watching him with wide eyes. "Were you born before humans were made? Do you have a favorite color? Did you really kill the giant Argos? Did Lady Hera really take his eyes and put them on peacock feathers?"

Even at the best of times, Hermes has a weakness for the curious. And it's easier to answer straight forward questions and tell stories than to deal with his feelings. He sits there too long, talking to Lyra, held in place by her questions and sincere desire to spend time with him.

He'll be late to meeting Achilles at the mouth of the Temple. Maia will make it there before him, taking a seat on a stump and waiting patiently for her son. It's like a piece of the night sky has stepped onto the earth and draped itself in a shawl of darkness, waiting for him.
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[personal profile] messageforyou 2024-01-20 06:56 am (UTC)(link)
Maia is tall, but within the bounds of how tall a human is. But her shadow is long, far longer than it ought to be, just as Prometheus' was. And there's a quiet about her, like the earth no longer knows her and doesn't quite know what to do with her presence.

And it's clear why the earth doesn't know her. Where Hermes showed the stars that make him as a treat to Achilles, Maia seems to only be stars now with only the faintest outline of what she used to be. She turns her head to look at Achilles, and her eyes are burning stars. But if one squints, tries to make out the features that faintly remain between points of light, she looks much like Hermes. The same clever, narrow eyes. The same pert nose, the same soft, feminine curve of the jaw, the same upturned mouth, the same wet sand skin, the same long dark lashes and hair. Stars cling to the end of her lashes, framing the light of her eyes.

She's the most beautiful of the Pleiades, and it's clear who Hermes took after.

"You know me." Her voice seems not quite of this world either. Like it might have been warm and present once, but now it seems like it comes from somewhere far away and unknown.

"Keep your distance. I'm waiting for someone." She says it firmly, skeptical of any man she doesn't recognize knowing her name. She's had enough of heroes pursuing her.

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