Achilles, Best of the Greeks (
refusetofight) wrote2023-11-23 09:22 pm
For @messageforyou
Besides the obvious, there’s one big problem with being dead: it leaves Patroclus with too much time to think. To ruminate. To overanalyze. That was always his tendency, but at least in life, he had Achilles and the war. There was rarely a stretch of stillness that allowed him to wander so deep in the labyrinth of his own thoughts.
Not like Elysium. Patroclus wishes he was more like Ajax, always spoiling for a test of strength against the shades of other legends, or Odysseus, chatting and joking so easily with anyone who will listen. Will they ever tire of it? Meanwhile, Pat still feels like his place here is undeserved. His act of bravery at Troy was a fluke. That wasn’t enough for Elysium; Achilles had to arrange that deal with Hades himself.
And what is he doing with that gift? Whiling it away in a chronically dreadful mood. It’s no surprise Achilles would take another lover. He needs someone more exciting and vibrant. He needs a challenge. Hermes is who he needed from the very start. Powerful, divine, worthy.
Now there’s Lyra, to—a beautiful, perfect child. Hermes can give Achilles anything he wants. What can Patroclus give him? Painful memories. Shame and regret. Achilles never says as much—of course he wouldn’t—but Pat assumes.
He lays sprawled on the spongy ground in the center of a glade, looking up at Ixion and fumbling around the corners of this well-trod maze of thought. Méli has surrounded him in scattered offerings: very fetchable sticks, a sandal, a broken arrow, an old bone. She finally gives up her restless pacing to flop down next to him. She shifts to rest her chin on his chest and sighs emphatically. Her gifts don’t seem to be helping.
“I’m sorry. I’m not good company right now, am I?” he mumbles, stroking her soft ears. He wishes he could be more like her. Living in the moment, not a single worry except what fun will be had next …
Not like Elysium. Patroclus wishes he was more like Ajax, always spoiling for a test of strength against the shades of other legends, or Odysseus, chatting and joking so easily with anyone who will listen. Will they ever tire of it? Meanwhile, Pat still feels like his place here is undeserved. His act of bravery at Troy was a fluke. That wasn’t enough for Elysium; Achilles had to arrange that deal with Hades himself.
And what is he doing with that gift? Whiling it away in a chronically dreadful mood. It’s no surprise Achilles would take another lover. He needs someone more exciting and vibrant. He needs a challenge. Hermes is who he needed from the very start. Powerful, divine, worthy.
Now there’s Lyra, to—a beautiful, perfect child. Hermes can give Achilles anything he wants. What can Patroclus give him? Painful memories. Shame and regret. Achilles never says as much—of course he wouldn’t—but Pat assumes.
He lays sprawled on the spongy ground in the center of a glade, looking up at Ixion and fumbling around the corners of this well-trod maze of thought. Méli has surrounded him in scattered offerings: very fetchable sticks, a sandal, a broken arrow, an old bone. She finally gives up her restless pacing to flop down next to him. She shifts to rest her chin on his chest and sighs emphatically. Her gifts don’t seem to be helping.
“I’m sorry. I’m not good company right now, am I?” he mumbles, stroking her soft ears. He wishes he could be more like her. Living in the moment, not a single worry except what fun will be had next …

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Maybe that’s why Aphrodite adores him; for all his strength and heroism, he’s powerless when it comes to love.
That love is a choice—Patroclus understands that. Many times, he’s chosen to love Achilles despite his outsize pride, his stubbornness, and now his love for another man. Loving a hero has been a feat of endurance, but seeing Achilles happy—even now, holding a daughter in his arms—is worth the struggle.
The way Lyra obviously absorbs all of this information—a slight furrow in her smooth brow, a little tweak of her mouth—reminds Achilles of young Zagreus.
“It will make more sense when the time comes.” He also recalls how much the prince protested at ‘you’ll understand when you’re older’ answers and gives her a kiss on the temple. “That sort of love is still years away, fledgling. Until then, you have our love.”
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“Lady Athena moves her favored heroes to action, but has the insight to stay a man’s hand when it’s driven by his worst impulses.” Like Achilles’ urge to cut down Agamemnon; he won’t soon forget the divine grip that stopped him from drawing his blade. “Only now do I fully appreciate the wisdom she tried to impart. If she ever comes to you, my dear, heed her words.”
Lyra may not go to war, but he hope she’ll still earn Athena’s favor as a beloved niece. He suspects Lyra will need some tempering wisdom.
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Achilles idly combs his fingers through her hair as he speaks. His shade may be cold, but he basks in her youthful warmth and Hermes’ peaceful glow. “Since then, they’ve paid more visits. Ladies Athena, Hestia, Hebe … Lords Apollo, Poseidon, Dionysus to name but a few. Many of them are pleasant. Others are more difficult.” Apollo. He means Apollo.
He cocks his head as another name occurs to him: “I suppose he’s not counted among the Olympians, but I hope you’ll meet Lord Prometheus one day. He’s a kind god who loves mortals. He could teach you many things about the world and the creatures he’s created.”
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Idly, Achilles wonders if Prometheus would be surprised by Lyra’s unlikely birth. Well … Maybe not surprised—gods and demigods are conceived in all sorts of unusual ways—but he might be intrigued.
“He would love to answer your questions, so long as you allow him to ask some of his own.” That’s what struck Achilles about his time with the Titan: that a god would want to know so much about him and his life. “Lord Prometheus loves to know about mortals.”
Achilles gives Lyra a conspiratorial look and taps her chin. “If you can hold still, he might draw your portrait.”
Secretly, Achilles hopes he does, if only so Lyra’s likeness is captured somewhere.
Meanwhile, Patroclus continues watching, listening, keeping his focus tightly on Achilles and Lyra. He can’t ignore the peaceful divine aura that’s flooded the space, but when he looks at Hermes directly, Pat risks suffering another twinge of jealousy. He’d much rather soak up Achilles’ paternal happiness and Lyra’s bright excitement.
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He appreciates Hermes taking that particular answer; he doesn’t want to make it sound like he hates any of Lyra’s aunts and uncles. Patroclus, for his part, thinks Hermes is cherry coating it. Even outside of his and Achilles’ deaths, he did watch Apollo kill many of his fellow Greeks with a brutal plague. It goes beyond grumpy or sensitive.
Pat opens his mouth to speak, but Achilles shoots him a look and quickly interjects. He remembers his promise to Hermes. “Lord Apollo gave the Trojans his favor and he made our lives very difficult for it. But such is to be expected of a war waged with mortals and gods.”
Patroclus isn’t entirely satisfied with that explanation, but he closes his mouth and drops his eyes to Méli. Achilles was just keeping the peace, he knows. This isn’t the time to argue about the cruelty of the gods.
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He shifts his hold more comfortably under her legs, still rocking her slowly back and forth. “You need not worry about Apollo, my dear. Even if he doesn’t like me very well, he loves your father. He wouldn’t hurt you.”
Really, the only Olympian Achilles is concerned about is Ares, should he ever be free of his imprisonment, but he doesn’t want to worry Lyra (or Hermes) with talk of that. “Someday, I’d like you to meet the gods and goddesses of the Underworld as well. Between you and me, they’re not nearly so scary as the stories say.”
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Patroclus shrugs. “Oh, of course. And there are plenty more where that came from. Juicier ones.”
“Don’t listen to him, fledgling,” Achilles says in mock exasperation before returning to the topic. “You asked about the Chthonic gods …”
He hums, still moving Lyra side to side, as if she’s infected him with her fidgeting. “They’re not as ostentatious as Olympians. They work hard and don’t ask much in return. Many of them are kinder than they might look. Particularly Charon.”
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But Achilles is the only one who has a child with Hermes, so he can’t help but feel just a little special. “If you keep sneaking down here, you’ll meet Charon before long. And Prince Zagreus.”
He adjusts his hold on Lyra, easily transferring her weight to one arm. With his free hand, he fixes the shoulder of her tunic. “I think you would like Lady Persephone and Lady Nyx, too. They’re both kind, strong, and wise.” He looks to Hermes, “They’re as vital to the Underworld as Lord Hades himself, don’t you think?”
If Lyra grows to be anything like them, he’ll be more than pleased.
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Especially given how well the Underworld seems to like Lyra.
“You’ll meet them all someday, you have my word. But you’ve had quite enough excitement for one day, little fledgling.” It’s almost surprising to see her tired after buzzing with so much energy; he expects her to be like Hermes, scarcely stopping for a single moment. But she’s still a mortal child with mortal limits. Achilles gives her a smiling peck on the cheek. “Time to get some rest.”
He sighs softly, wishing he could keep her here. But this isn’t her place. Not for a long time yet. Achilles steps closer to Hermes and presses Lyra into his arms. “See her safely home?”
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And Pat can’t very well deny that adorable petition. His beard bristles around a smile as he stands, releasing Méli. He approaches and rests one hand on Achilles’ lower back while he takes Lyra’s tiny, offered hand in a gentle squeeze. Hermes receives the briefest glance before Patroclus focuses his eyes on Lyra’s. They match Achilles’ color, but take Hermes’ shape and keen focus. “Be good and rest well, little stranger.”
Méli won’t be left out, and she plants her front paws on Hermes’ leg, snuffling excitedly and begging for all the pets she’s missed in the past several minutes.
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Right now, Méli’s best is to enthusiastically lick Lyra’s hand before it moves back out of reach.
Achilles soaks up this moment. Savors it like a ripe fig. He wishes he could capture it forever, crystallized in amber. Lyra, Hermes, Patroclus: three of the people he loves most, all together, surrounded by divine warmth. He never would have expected this from his afterlife.
His hand strokes Lyra’s cheek one last time. “Farewell for now, my dear. We’ll meet again soon.”
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“She’s a good child.” Patroclus pets Achilles’ curls. “I’m sorry you can’t be with her.”
“Mm,” Achilles agrees with a solemn nod. Then, after a moment, he cups either side of Pat’s face. “Thank you. For your understanding and patience.”
“She makes you happy.” Pat dips his head, swallows. “Hermes makes you happy.”
“And you make me happy,” Achilles adds quickly. He continues holding Patroclus’ face and simply admires his steady, dark eyes before he pulls him into a kiss. Méli, meanwhile dances around them and barks her displeasure at being left out of all of this ongoing affection.
“Fine,” Achilles laughs, reaching down to ruffle her ears. “You make me happy, too, pup.”
They spend another another hour or two walking Elysium’s glades, and for once, their conversation is more about the future than the past. Pat still grumbles about Medea and Apollo’s advice, but it doesn’t give way to bickering. His mood doesn’t sour, even when Achilles finally has to take his leave again.
Just shy of the Temple, Achilles dusts the dirt from his chiton (left by Méli’s eager paws) and checks his reflection in a glassy pool of water. He tries to tame back his hair, only for his curls to resume their rugged cascade down his shoulders. He frowns. Goddesses can be very opinionated about the lovers their only son takes.
He’s glad he tried to clean up, because he didn’t expect Hermes to be late to such an important meeting. Maia is already here and he’ll have her full focus. Achilles rarely ever feels nervous—it’s not something a hero is usually capable of—but he does now.
Not for himself, he realizes, but for Hermes.
Achilles clears his throat softly before breaking the silence. “Lady Maia?”
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Achilles easily sees Hermes in Maia, but he also sees Thetis—a nymph, beautiful and formidable, but ill-used by gods and men. Her cold mistrust doesn’t come as a surprise; he’s seen his mother show mortals the same, and worse.
“Goddess, I cannot cross the border of this realm. I can come no closer,” Achilles assures in the even, formal tone he’s learned to address the gods. He bows. “I am Achilles, son of Thetis, once called Greatest of the Greeks. I was summoned here by your son, Hermes.”
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